37 weeks

We are now considered FULL TERM! Time to celebrate!! If you asked me last year if I thought we would ever be at this point in a pregnancy, I would have said "only in my dreams." Don't get me wrong, at every appointment I keep on expecting the doctor to say that something is wrong and that they will have to take Joslyn Olivia out.... asap.
But every appointment the doctor always says that everything is normal and perfect! But I still have that thought that something will go not right.
Maybe I think that so that something will not go wrong, expect the worse so when the best happens it is more of a celebration!
For the past two weeks we have been .5 cm dilated but my cervix has effaced to 80% last week. I have been having daily contractions... good ones the doctor calls them. Some are REALLY good ones! hehe. Ou last visit we saw a doctor that we have not seen yet.. he walked in, sat down, opened my file (my THICK file) and said "so you are having a daughter." OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH that makes me cry just thinking of it! No one has said it like that before. My husband and I said "yes we are!" What a great feeling!

People have been asking me if I am scared about the labor. Honestly, no I am not. I see it that Joslyn Olivia has been working so hard for the past nine months. She has been so strong and brave that for a few hours I think I owe it to her to be just as brave and strong. (Not saying that I am not taking the epidural, because I plan on to when the pain gets too intense.) But if Joslyn can fight against the odds and survive, I think I can get her out.

Some days I still think, "I can not believe we are pregnant." The other night I told my husband that there was a little baby in my belly. It just seems like such an amazing dream, that sometimes I expect to wake up and not be pregnant. But everytime I do wake up....... there she is! All happy in my belly!


Jacky