Our angel babies have been on my mind a lot lately. I think the fear of losing Lover Bean has brought back so many emotions. I know in my heart that I am a mommy of 4: 2 angels in heaven, Joslyn, and Lover bean. But sometimes knowing that does not bring any healing. It has been 2 yrs and 6 months since we lost our first and 2 yrs 1 month since we lost our second. Time does help... but it never goes away.
I came across this video. It is so sad and heart breaking... but beautiful all at the same time. May it bring you peace if you have lost your baby.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Joslyn is getting to be a big girl!
Joslyn had her 12 month well visit last week. She is now 20 lbs 12 ounces!!!!! WAHOO She has hit the 20 lb mark! For her weight she is FINALLY in the 25-50%!!! But she is only 27.5 inches long which makes her only 5%! But we feel.... her weight is up so we will take it! We will worry about her length later! hehe.
Joslyn is just an amazing little thing! She is walking everywhere..... and has mastered walking BACKWARDS! Walking with her to the mail box is so much fun! She loves to hold Mackinac's leash.... from a distance it has to be the funniest picture! This little thing walking her dog! hehe
We are still doing well... I am 11 weeks preg today! WAHOO. The extreme sickness is starting to subside. I am no longer deathly ill ALL day... I maybe have 3-5 moments a day of sickness. Cinnamon gum has become my life saver! We went for my 9 week check up and Lover Bean's heart beat was in the 160s! So all looks wonderful! My due date is November 12.... one day before Stephen's bday! We pray every day.... in hopes that this baby is as strong as Joslyn was. My fear is that we will add another memory stone to our Memory Garden. But we have made it this far... and only with Joslyn did we make it this far before.
Here is Lover Bean at 9 weeks. Click on the picture to see it bigger and to see the details typed out.
Joslyn is just an amazing little thing! She is walking everywhere..... and has mastered walking BACKWARDS! Walking with her to the mail box is so much fun! She loves to hold Mackinac's leash.... from a distance it has to be the funniest picture! This little thing walking her dog! hehe
We are still doing well... I am 11 weeks preg today! WAHOO. The extreme sickness is starting to subside. I am no longer deathly ill ALL day... I maybe have 3-5 moments a day of sickness. Cinnamon gum has become my life saver! We went for my 9 week check up and Lover Bean's heart beat was in the 160s! So all looks wonderful! My due date is November 12.... one day before Stephen's bday! We pray every day.... in hopes that this baby is as strong as Joslyn was. My fear is that we will add another memory stone to our Memory Garden. But we have made it this far... and only with Joslyn did we make it this far before.
Here is Lover Bean at 9 weeks. Click on the picture to see it bigger and to see the details typed out.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Breast milk is great for preemies!
CBS News shows why preemies need breastmilk... Just another reason why breast milk is just so important and WONDERFUL!
cbs clip
cbs clip
Monday, April 6, 2009
our update
It has been a while since I have posted. But there is a good reason. We are pregnant!
I am 8 weeks today... but this preg has not been without issues. From getting 2 positive tests at home, to the lab making an error on my blood work saying I was not preg, to having a blood clot and light spotting 2 days after the home tests, to having to stop nursing Joslyn due to me being high risk, to suffering from a breast infection from cold turkey nursing, to not hearing the baby's heart beat at 6 weeks... but seeing it, then hearing it one week later (138 beats per minute!)..... to severe morning sickness that is non stop.
Yes it has been ONE MONTH ago today we found out we were preg with "Lover Bean." So far everything is going well (besides what I mentioned above) I am on the progesterone supplement which makes me severely ill and Zofran to help make me feel better. (which is NOT a miracle pill!) We are very excited and happy about the new "Lover Bean" but if you know us...... we can not fully relax. We know better than most what can happen. But I am happy to say that I have past the time we lost our second baby.... and past the time our first baby died (but did not know until 2 weeks later) That makes me feel a bit better about Lover Bean.... we just pray that Lover Bean is as strong as Joslyn was while in my belly.
Jacky
I am 8 weeks today... but this preg has not been without issues. From getting 2 positive tests at home, to the lab making an error on my blood work saying I was not preg, to having a blood clot and light spotting 2 days after the home tests, to having to stop nursing Joslyn due to me being high risk, to suffering from a breast infection from cold turkey nursing, to not hearing the baby's heart beat at 6 weeks... but seeing it, then hearing it one week later (138 beats per minute!)..... to severe morning sickness that is non stop.
Yes it has been ONE MONTH ago today we found out we were preg with "Lover Bean." So far everything is going well (besides what I mentioned above) I am on the progesterone supplement which makes me severely ill and Zofran to help make me feel better. (which is NOT a miracle pill!) We are very excited and happy about the new "Lover Bean" but if you know us...... we can not fully relax. We know better than most what can happen. But I am happy to say that I have past the time we lost our second baby.... and past the time our first baby died (but did not know until 2 weeks later) That makes me feel a bit better about Lover Bean.... we just pray that Lover Bean is as strong as Joslyn was while in my belly.
Jacky
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
